My Testimony...

Few weeks ago in Cell, we were doing some recap on our Church's program, 121...
The Testimony part was hard for me cause my life in the past was miserable, hopeless & meaningless... Total darkness, no light...

I was a normal kid living a normal life where everyone is happy until I was 7, things happened... Everything in my life changed, as well as my family's...
I was unable live a normal life anymore, unable to attend school & unable to join anyone, there's a lot of things I can't do anymore, nothing at all...
My everyday life is just like going to see doctors & whatever you can named of... Having to suffer from pain & no strength etc, was miserable & hopeless... Same routines everyday, there was no hope no future no light, nothing...
Everyday, my thoughts are, am I different from others? Will anyone accept me? Is the world giving up on me or am I giving up on the world etc?
Those thoughts in my mind are very very negative... Having these thoughts everyday, builds up my depressions day by day... It increases everyday for 9 years +...
I wanted to end my life but sometimes hope comes in... In the end, that hope was not a real hope, all the hopes in the past 9 years just come & go, none of them were real... I felt so lost, no one can help me... I felt so lonely...

My life is the same everyday until last year 2009 Good Friday... Auntie Doris invited me & my mom to Auntie Joyce's house to celebrate Good Friday, there are a lot of people but i still felt that I'm different from others... Good Friday was still an awesome day for me... Auntie Doris invited me to attend Church on Sunday as well... Church was awesome, I felt so powerful than after Church session, Pastor Richard asked me whether I want to accept Christ as my Lord & Saviour or not... I straight away said yes i want to... We prayed the Prayer of Confession together & I've accepted Christ as my Lord & Saviour... That day changed my life forever, I know in Christ I'm someone not the nobody in the past ever again...
I'm not going to state out of what I'm doing in Church now cause all my friends who are close to me knows what I'm doing from the day I'm a Christian...

Now I'm doing things to honour & glorify His Name & helping those who are in needs...